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It’s been a great week. We had a cozy, wonderful honeymoon filled to the brim with long drives and amazing food. We drove up to Door County and stayed at the wonderful (wonderful.) Whistling Swan. Then we scooted across Death’s Door to Washington Island and the Washington Hotel. It’s also a culinary school that focuses on local and organic ingredients, so the food there was awesome. Even just bread (baked from the island’s wheat), butter (good stuff), and milk (so thick and fresh) was an amazing treat I couldn’t seem to get enough of. We also both really liked the quiet island. It was a lovely time.

Unfortunately, upon return, we found that our rental company made a glitch in our lease, so we are currently stuck in the bedroom of Adam’s old apartment filled to the brim with stuff we were planning to move yesterday into our new place. It makes me slightly claustrophobic at times, and hasn’t been a lot of fun in that respect. It’s been ages since I’ve had claustrophobic panic attacks, and I forgot how scary it can be, though, thankfully, these have been very mild.

But tonight, we bought a bottle of sherry to beat the claustrophobia blues. Adam smoked a cigar, and I smoked my pipe while we drank it and talked and watched the long, dark, cool rain fall. There was a soft ease to the evening despite loud music nearby. We delighted together at how the taste of tobacco and sherry melted on our tongues, the slow sips and breaths. The moment was small, but it was very sweet.

I’ve been married a week, and it has been wonderful. I relish the closeness and the safety I find here, the sweetness of being tied so tightly, the joy of embarking on something new and bright. Even as I read my vows and felt their weight in my mouth, I didn’t know that tomorrow would feel so different. I find myself surprised, yet again, by God and this world and this life, surprised by the width and depth of things. I love being surprised.

I wish you all a good night. If it’s raining, I hope it is pattering nicely outside your window while you are falling asleep.